J'ai vu ce soir "Shame", le nouveau film de Steve McQueen, avec Carey Mulligan, actrice que j'avais adoré dans "une éducation".
Comment dire...C'est encore un de ces films que je ne comprends pas. C'est long, c'est ennuyeux, c'est plat. Ces longs plans-séquence sur un personnage qui ne fait rien, cadré de façon complêtement absurde (la moitié du front coupée quand le personnage joué par Carey chante "New-York New-York "trèèès lentement dans un cabaret (c'est quoi d'ailleurs ce "New-York New-York "dépressif? C'est quoi le sens? J'arrive pas à voir...), ou la moitié du coté droit du corps du personnage principal ,coupée aussi , dans le 1er plan du film (quand j'ai vu ça j'ai compris que ça allait être long...).
En fait, si je suis allée voir ce film à la base c'est ,d'une, parce qu'il y avait des bonnes critiques (notamment dans Le Monde), de deux (et c'est la raison la plus importante), parce que Carey Mulligan y jouait.
Déjà ça m'apprendra à me méfier des critiques, même celles du Monde. J'aurais dû faire gaffe au fait que c'était du même réalisateur que "Hunger", film que j'avais vu et qui ne m'avait pas spécialement ravie selon mes souvenirs (un peu lointains quand même).
Mais Carey! Carey! J'en ai marre de la voir comme ça. Je veux la Carey d'"une éducation"! La fille aux longs cheveux chatains, avec son visage expressif et son jeu naturel et émouvant!
Pourquoi elle est blonde maintenant?! Est ce que c'est censé être mieux à Hollywood? Un carré blond, c'est son nouveau personnage? Elle est comme ça dans tous les films maintenant! Give me my brunette back!
C'est pas qu'une histoire de cheveux. Je veux dire, ça change toute son image. Elle avait l'air intelligente, spirituelle et sensible, drôle aussi. Maintenant elle a toujours l'air sensible, mais c'est tout.
C'est dur de ne pas retrouver un acteur qu'on a beaucoup apprecié dans des bons films, des bons rôles qui le mettent en valeur. J'espère que ça va changer.

I just happened to remember that I can use my LJ to write entries too.

It seems like I just read my friend page most of the time. It keeps me in track with the new stuff from the band I'm fond of: SMAP.

Actually, it's been 2 years ans a half since I first encountered Smap. Thinking about it, it's been quite a long time! I can't believe it myself. I feel like it's still so fresh...

Well, I kind of took a distance for half a year, and came back to it this Autumn.



Smap is something.

I use to be a big fan of Arashi. I'm still love them, but I took a step back. I don't watch there shows anymore, except from time to time, mostly on streaming.

Still, I can't say that I prefer Smap to Arashi. As a group, I think I like Arashi the best because of how they interact well, and how good friends they are. They appear really simple, and they're closer to my age, which maybe makes me sympathize with them more, or not?

Smap is different, but similar. I think Smap existence as an Idol group is extraordinary. I mean, they changed the image of boys-band! They were the first to try to be natural on TV and attract fan with their personalities.
I think that, if Arashi is so fantastic, it's partly because of Smap. Smap created a new way of being an idol. And I love that.

But Smap lacks something that Arashi has. Maybe solidarity, or group spirit, or gentleness. I believe they like each other, but... too much bullying sometimes. I think this is the way they work, scolding the member who made a mistake and all. It may be thought to protect him from being scolded by the staff or something. But sometimes it makes me sad. I'd like to see them defend each other, like Arashi do.

That's why I can't say I like Smap more  than Arashi. But, I more fond of them now, because they have this fantastic and unique pair: Shingoro

Isn't it fun to keep a live journal?

Sounds like it.

I like to read other's. But mine is just floating into space. I'm not earnest enough to keep one, probably.

The question is: why should I?
Why whould I write on the internet? Why does everybody write on the internet and not in some hidden and secret notebook (which I do actually, from time to time...)?

Because everybody wants there writing to be read! And commented!
They want nice comments.

Comments are really THE thing.

I think I would have continue this journal if more people had commented. Like, if I was sure I was read. If my writings were liked and wanted. Probably.

But... you know....I... myself... don't ...comment....ever.

Even if I like an entry, even if I'm moved by a story, even if I think the writer is a genius. It's embarassing. Sometimes I really want to express my feelings but I'm too shy to do so. Yeah... even on the internet...

But I read the comments made by other readers! And I'm happy when someone express a feeling close to mine, or tell my thoughts.

About writing, there is one more thing: English is not my first langage.

As you can see.

So writing in english is kind of unnatural, and I'm afraid of the ugliness of the result.

But I don't want to write in french. Because Internet is english... somehow... or just because I want more readers....haha.

Anyway, I'll try to write more entries. Even if I don't have any comment. Get a rythme. My pace.

The story of Mr Sheep

 

This story begins at the fall of the night. For many people it was the end of the day. Work was over and it was time to enjoy family life. For some people it was the beginning of the day. They slept until 5pm and were now ready for their night life.

But for Mr Sheep, it was time for nothing. He had nor day life nor night life. Well in fact he had some kind of day life. He worked in an office. But office work is anything but life. And he had no family to warm him up when work was done.

Lastly, he was too tired to get out at night. And even if he was not, he wouldn’t know where to go.

As every night he was going to eat alone, then watch TV and go to bed, still alone.

But this night the emptiness of his life hit him. He went to the bathroom, feeling the urge to take a look at his face in the mirror.

“Who am I? Where do I go? Why is my life so empty?”

As he was staring into the glass, he could hardly recognize the person staring back at him.

“When did I ever become so old? Worn out… expired. My whole life has slipped by, and what’s the use? Here I am, all alone and good-for nothing, knocking myself up day after day in this goddamn office, what for? What do I have? No friends. No family. Money? Not even that! Mr. Sheep… Mr. Cheap! If I died today, no one would even notice…” The gloomy thoughts were flashing by, running him into madness, leaving the feeling of void and forsakenness.

Oh, look at that. You’re pathetic!

The mocking unfriendly voice broke the silence.

You are just crying on yourself as usual. Why not commit suicide as well? You only have to open the window and jump.

Then, Mr Sheep turned his eyes to the nearer window, a small balcony in fact, and opened it. What he saw moved him slightly. There were some lights on the street. One every 30 meters. They were supposed to help the pedestrian passing by. These lights were artificial, cold and indifferent, but it was light. He felt like a moth. Attracted.

To jump or not to jump.

There you go, Mr. Cheap! One more step...  – the voice was creeping in, breaking the tension of the moment.

“Who are you?!” – Mr. Sheep cried, as he stepped down from the window-sill.

Who are you? – echoed the voice. – You really wanna know? Who are YOU, that’s a good question. Do you happen to know? No? Thought so…

“WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?!!!” – Mr. Sheep was shaking, as he was looking around trying to spot the mocker. “Why are you hiding? Scared?”

Scared? Of you?! – The voice broke into laughter. – Hey, that was funny! You’re a funny guy, Cheap…

“I’m not joking, you! Show yourself!”

I’m right here. Turn your eyes on the right. Here I am!

Mr Sheep was facing the mirror again. “Hey, if that’s another trick of yours…”

Joking aside, Cheap. Man, doncha get it? Tell me, are you really THAT stupid or you’re just putting it on? C’mon, Cheap, do yourself a favor and stop looking around - think! I’m not behind you, neither somewhere in the room. I’m closer than you think!”

As Mr. Sheep was scrutinizing the reflection, trying to distinguish a sign of someone’s presence, he suddenly bumped into his own image. What struck him was the sharp fevered glare of his eyes –HIS eyes?! And that devilish smile playing on his lips – where did THAT come from?..

“Wait a minute… But how can that be?.. ”

Making progress - that’s my boy!

Word by word, it came from HIS own lips. Obviously, the voice could control Mr Sheep’s facial expression while they talk.

“What the hell?! Are you saying that…”

No, WE’re saying that…you’re getting it, arencha?

“I’m a schizoid...”

Bingo! As nutty as a fruitcake! No hard feelings, amigo.

What are you?!!

I’m the hidden part of you. The one you kept behind the wings and never gave a fair chance.  I’m the bad guy, the black sheep, and you’ll have to deal with me now because i won’t let you spoil our life anymore! I’m sick of your whining and whimpering! High time to get a life, Cheap! I’ll show ya what livin’ in style means! From now on, you’ll be doing what I want! WHOA!! Let’s go out and have some fun!

As the inner voice spoke, Mr Sheep’s face changed. His eyes were shining of naughtiness; his lips moved slightly to form a smirk.

“ So you are me. Or, better, a part of me...” A very annoying part of him in fact. The voice didn’t want to keep quiet. It was speaking, telling, chatting. Whispering or shouting words that disturbed our hero.

“ Well,ok, I will go wherever you want but please,please, stop harassing me like that!”

The voice stopped.

For 2 minutes there was no more talking; nothing but a big blank and refreshing silence. Then: So, my dear,let’s begin by the door. Walk to it;open it and go.

As he did so, Mr Sheep asked : “ By the way; how should I call you?”

 

 

 After re-reading this almost empty LJ I thought I should talk about the new Slash couple that caught my brain. Not an Arashi one this time but still attached to JE (Johnny's Entertainment). It's the well known Akame! 
 

Old pic, from Junior time


Akame is composed of Kamenashi Kazuya ( the one on the left) and Akanishi Jin (on the right). Both of them are members of Kat-tun:


I used to know the existence of this couple since I began to take interest in JE but at this time I was in Arashi only and this two boys seemed too fashionable to me. And I didn't like Jin the cold beauty who dared to answer to Matsujun's attacks in Utawara >_<
I had seen Kame before in the drama Nobuta no produce (it was the drama that made me enter in the Japanese Pop culture) but I was crazy about the character Akira played by Yamapi (the crazy dork I'd love to be). I searched for Yamapi's thing on the net but never fall for his band NEWS (they were too many (8 or 10)). Then I watched Hana Yori Dango and fall for Matsujun and then for his band Arashi (and then for the leader Ohno and Ohmiya SK) but that's an other story.
I rewatched Nobuta yesterday and I have to say it's still the best drama I ever saw.

Back to Akame. I don't remember how I noticed them again but the thing is I totaly fall in love with this weird couple. 

I've just found Ueda's clone:

The Kat-tun's Ueda Tastuya:


And it's a girl:

The L word's Alice

Got this off of someone's blog but I can't remember who >_<. I just copied it on my pc because it looked interesting but forgot to write the adress. So if you recognize it, just tell me^^

Rules:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, Winamp, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name. <- if you feel like it.

1• If someone says "is this okay?" you say.

Arashi: Nice na kokoroiki (If it's from the heart...)

2• How would you describe yourself?

Les ogres de Barbak: "Impro" (I can't describe myself!)

3• What do you like in a guy/girl?

Brockeback mountain soundtrack: Riding horses (yeah! Doing Piggyback!)

4• How do you feel today?

La tordue: Maboul (Crazy: but I don't >_<)

5• What is your life's purpose?

Grease soundtrack: Sandy (can't think to anything clever)

6• What is your motto?

Saez: Sauver cette étoile (Save this star: what a great motto XD)

7• What do your friends think of you?

Grease soundtrack: mooning (They think I'm a dreamer? That's OK with me^^)

8• What do you think of your parents?

ABBA: Money money money (What else?)

9• What do you think about very often?

Louise attaque: Shibuya Station (japanese stuff like Arashi and co: yep!)

10• What is 2 + 2?

Boogie Balagan:Ride on ride on (Strangely, it matches)

11• What do you think of your best friend?

Breakfast on Pluto soundtrack: Me and my arrow ( my best friend is not human, it's my arrow...a metaphor for my pen?)

12• What do you think of the person you like?

Tatu: Clowns (I'm afraid of clowns. Does it mean I'm afraid of the person I like?)

13• What is your life story?

Beatles: Yesterday ( I'm so old my life is behind me)

14• What do you want to be when you grow up?

Arashi: Love so sweet (a sweet lover?)

15• What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Yamapi: Daite Senorita (Tsuyoku tsuyoku tsuyoku hanasanaide)

16• What will you dance to at your wedding?

Arashi: Tomadoinagara (While we were lost: I have to be really lost to get married)

17• What will they play at your funeral?

Beatles: Birthday (because death is a second birth: cf Northern lights 3 ( the book))

18• What is your hobby/interest?

Arashi: Saweranai (I don't know what it means so let's just say Arashi is my hobby^^)

19• What is your biggest fear?

Bénabar: Porcelaine (Being broken(hearted)?)

20• What is your biggest secret? 

Tryo: Suprématie (I want to be the master of the world! Niark niark)

21• What do you think of your friends? 

Beatles: I want to hold your hand (yeah! let's all take hands and dance around the fire!)

22• What will you post this as? 

Cali: Elle m'a dit (She told me)

A year ago, I started this LJ, I can't remember why. Was it just to be able to access easily to the Arashi news? Or did I want to write seriously about Arashi?
I sure wrote some stuff in french...for french fans? for me? I can't remember what was the purpose of all that but what is sure is that it was in relation with Arashi.
However, I deleted all the stuffs for some reason but since I wasn't read it doesn't matter^^

So, why am I starting to write again?
Maybe because it's been a year and I'm still an Arashi fan. Not any more a fresh and enthusiastic fan discovering the whole universe of Jpop and Johnny's Jimusho but a wise and loving fan who knows exactly what she loves in Arashi: slash!
Yep, I'm a Yaoiste, a RPSlasheuse, a twisted mind who cant' help but see gay romances everywhere^^

In fact: The best thing about Arashi is the love members have for each other.

For sure, each member love Arashi and the other members like brothers..........nahhh XD

Actually, I had time to fantasize a lot in one year and to seriously think about it (I'm a student, I have time) and I'm not crazy about Orgies or any couples. I have my favorites.

The first one is Ohmiya SK of course. How could I not love these two dorks so obviously in love with each other (Nino win the prize of Discretion?What's that?) ?!


The second one is Sakuraiba. Yep, I know it's not very original but I like "real" couples more than twisted couples. It took me time to like these two. At the beginning I was not very fond of Aiba. I found him stupid and ugly... you can beat me.
So, little by little I learned to love Aiba Masaki whom I discover is not so stupid and can be really sexy and pretty. And he is so cute and naive and in the same time so horny and perverted and also emotional and Arashi loving and ( but that's might be only me) thoughtful.
So, well, since i liked Sho and all, and I was a little bit tired of Ohmiya SK, I began to fantasize about Sakuraiba (sakurai aiba,see how their names mach! that's a sign...). They are so much more discreet than Ohmiya Sk, the more I can get is loving looks and rare touching ( and well, an half joking confession of dating during a concert) but it's so exciting because I don't quite get how this relationship works yet and it's like having a whole new world to explore.



Hm. So. That's it. I'll see if I'm motivated to continue to talk about it. Good night and good luck folks!